真的好累

Last minute的我，加上繁忙及堆积如山的功课，又加上来临的考试，是不是很惨咧？

是的，的确现在的我很惨。几乎要行尸走肉了。哈哈哈。

除了累，还是累。

而且是真的很累。

主啊，怜悯我的不足，怜悯我last minute态度，帮助我不让我病倒。施恩与我。

现在真正能感受到何为与时间赛跑。不简单。

愿主施恩。

不留情的安静

安静，未必是好的，也未必不好。

安静久了，我也麻木了。

回想起之前的日子，多么的好。

我打从开始就知道会有这样的一天。

尝试了，但没结果。

累了，也不想再尝试。

只觉得可惜。

只怕一件事，那就是对你完全冷淡，就像你对我一样。

当需要时，你们没在我身边。

你们选择安静。

觉得无助，好比你们可以随意的表示你们的不满在我身上。

好，我也要选择这不留情的安静。

只怕到时候，我就连自己也不认得。

可惜。

Home - Oh

After watched the Home movie, I somehow feel that the main character (little purplish alien called Oh) is reflecting myself.

He is small alien that nobody like him around. He is lonely, longs for love and hugs. He often makes mistake and create problems for others. He cares his love one more than himself, and willing to sacrifice anything for his love one. He is emotional, he got a lot of expression, but seldom express himself through communication.

Well, not all of him like me, just some maybe. Maybe I am emotional when  watching this movie, but somehow I felt pity for Oh. He did the best to understand his friend, but in return he get scolded and hurt. But he never give up, still return to his friend because he made a promise to his friend.

I admire the moment he knew he will be killed, but he willingly sacrifice his life to help his friend. I wonder how he still can stay happy when he is lonely? Haha.

Well, a nice, funny and touching simple story.

累了～

好累～心，身，灵都累了～

才刚踏入新的一年就那么快累了～

很多东西等着我去做，但现在的我没起劲～

多么希望当你听到我低潮的声音时会关心我～

累了，就休息吧～不然还能做什么～

（Emo Emo就好～明天没事了～)

2015年 - 预备自己的最后一年

2015 年过了 14 天，现在的我在做些什么？

这是我 2015 年最大的问题。

很遗憾的送走 2014，因为许多的计划还没完成，甚至有些还没开始。

2016 年若顺利将进入神学院进修，但现在的我已经预备到 7788 了吗？

遗憾和紧张如热锅上的蚂蚁的心情。

不再只希望，
为着呼召和梦想，
2015 加油～！

Why I can't tell the truth? Why I lied?

I get what I want, but not through Your way.

I seeked Your presence, but I walked my own way.

I ask favor from other, but I failed them.

What I had done? What I suppose to do? Why I lied in the first place?

I have no face to turn to You and all I failed.

Not the Saturday that I expecting

Yesterday, was a day I didn't expected to happen.. It was not the Saturday that I expecting from the early Monday..

My car broke down twice when I on my way back from work. To make think worse, my engine stopped function at the middle of Penang Bridge where huge traffic behind me.. I was panic and worried as I tried to wave my hand to tell the drivers behind me to pass by me and in the same time, fired up my engine.

After a few shot, my engine came to live, but I know it will not last long.. With prayful heart, I drove my car, hoping I can reach the nearest R&R to cool down my car. Thank God my car manged to stop itself after second malfunction at the R&R station. Stims and burned smell came from my car hood.

I try not to make it long, but eventually a car technician came with his bike and fixed my car. I had no choose but had him to fix it. Costed me RM 440, and I am currently broke..

It took 3 hours to fix my car, and I had to postpone the P&W practice that scheduled on 6.30pm.. It made me silent until now as my delay had screwed everything up.. I am very sorry..

Despite not having the Saturday that I was expecting, I met with a guy (Zul is his name) also having the same problem. His bike broke down just after crossing the bridge. We had a chat, and knew that he is also from SP. He is a boat and tanker technician working at Jetty.

I was not expecting for this, as I was planning to fix my car after my work, but it broke down half way before I can make it to the service shop.

I think the best is I remain silent, and hoping that somehow you can understand my situation and I need you to comfort me as I was panic and helpless during that time. Although I may look like "I am ok" externally, but in my deep heart I need you. I was sad and felt like alone when you replied my message.

I am not blaming you or other similar means to that. Just an simple expression.

I just hoping that my weekend can spend more time with you. That's why I always expecting weekend. Well, yesterday was the worst I had, so far maybe.

Anyway, night.. :)